Is lately I've been gaining this.
I thought I would eat right for once try to be normal.
But i've been getting fat.
period.
So im back to dieting.
Tomorrow I'll be fasting
and my goal is to get back to the double digits.

Fact: I obsess about my weight.
Fact: I dont give a fuck if you dont like it.

Sometimes I sit and beat myself about how much I weigh. Other times I'll toss in the towel and eat a cup of noodles. But in the end, I cant look into a mirror and think "You have a decent bod."
Because no matter what that scale says, I know I dont look right. Something is always off, not right, out of place, so big, too small.

Fact: I weight 100 pounds. 99 on a good day.
Fact: I am almost 5'5.
Fact:That should mean I look thin
Fucking FACT: I look no where near it.

Cheers to all you girls that have the discipline to not eat. I salute you. I think you are beautiful even if everyone else thinks you look like a skeleton. I envy you. I believe eatting disorders are beautiful and attractive. Im drawn to them like cartoons to artists.

Now send me hate mail, I dont care. Because I dont know you and dont care about your opinion.