I have been blessed with something so beautiful its hard not to believe in a higher power.
She is my miracle.
A look at her reveals everything I want and need in life. She is my present and future and the air I breath. I have been reborn. From woman to mother.
I have traveled to many places and have never seen anything so perfect in my life.
I am crying tears of joy just because I know that she is mine. That my life has changed and it will only get better. Sleepless nights have never been so enjoyable. I would change any numbers of diapers if it meant having my finger squeezed between hers. I have never been so desperate to see the color of someones eyes or more proud to see what looks like a smile.

Nothing can ever prepare someone for motherhood. Its an impossible feeling to describe. But its the most gratifying feeling in the world.

Where to start?
I havent written in quite a while.
Well, Im pregnant.
I found out on January 27th.
Now im about 7 weeks, almost 8. Its the most exciting thing in the world.
But morning sickness is a killer. I've been throwing up like crazy the past few days.
Oh and I've been eating non stop. Its down right PAINFUL if I dont.
Our first doctors appointment is on Thursday. I cannot wait.
Heres a picture I took at 6 weeks

Also, we got a dog. Shes the cutest thing ever. She a tiny chow with a big head and little ears.
We names her Honey Bear.



We adopted her from the Humane Society because we want our child to have a dog. And she'll be perfect. She's so mellow for only being a 2 year old.
And she doesnt mind being pulled on.
Plus, whats better than a protective dog for a little baby?

Lauren, Jesse's sister is moving out in 2 weeks too. Shes going to Scottsdale to learn to be a pastry chef.
That means we're going to have a two bedroom to ourself.
Which I think is too big,
so we're going to move when the lease is up.

And in March im starting at the local Beauty School to become a hair stylist.
Which will be mega crazy since I'll be going 5p-10p and I already work 8a-3p!
But lifes good.